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THIS WEEKEND, I will be at @kplayfest and @animeimpulse this weekend in Anaheim, CA. Check out latest stuff I will be releasing exclusively in person

First time doing Kpop posters and nervous if people would like those. Please stop by and say hi

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I usually don't say this about my art but this summer Nilou I recently finished is ̶ 2017YupiANanEmote001


By the way, I made a new Instagram account

https://instagram.com/siznart

Please give a follow to my new account since my old one got shadowbanned :(

So, I spent hundreds of hours painting Nilou's boobs this week. And I realized I've been so highly focused 24/7 on thinking about female body to maximum beauty. Some ppl may not understand why I would waste my week focused on drawing anime tiddys all day.


I am sure this is what a lot of artists gets questioned sometimes, especially those of you who are digital artists. Because I have the same experience.

I get asked 'why do you draw sexy anime girls for living?'

or 'for a girl, you draw very explicit artworks.

Does it make good money? Well, sex sells, right?'.


Someone once told me, 'That ain't art. I make real art.'


Drawing anime girls is sometimes looked down upon. Even my professors while I was in fine art major were not so keen of me drawing anime girls. And considering I spend significant amount of my lifetime invest in this, sometimes I wonder myself, "what am I actually doing?"


I had years of doubting myself and struggles to find some kind of pride and reason doing anime art. And the lack of self esteem made me stop posting art online.


Recently, I had this thought "what makes the stuff I do as art?, what is even art?"

So I wanted to share my thoughts on this topic.

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If you think about it, anime art is just an extended study of human anatomy and appreciating feminine beauty just like all other forms art since the prehistoric ages -- from Venus of Willendorf from Paleolithic era and sculptures of Da Vinci and Michaelangelo from Renaissance period, the appreciation of the female body continued in various forms.


In other words, a lot of artists got inspirations from the beauty of human body. And appriciating and idolization of human body shows in many different mediums throughout the art history.



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What I like about art is that whenever someone creates something, it shows what they value: what they think as beautiful or inspirational.

It does not have to be a standard definition of beauty. What individual person thinks of beauty may differ. Regardless, art shows what the artist wanted to represent as beauty and shares it with the viewers, without saying a word.


Some artists specifically draw hands beautifully because that's what they love. Or, some artists are into drawing small chest, etc. The preference of individual artists show the uniqueness in their style. That's what their heart is speaking, that they found this extremely beautiful and want to share this with you.


I think that's why art is so mesmerizing. It is a way of communication, quietly yet so powerfully.


Anime art, as well, is another form of art study that has been passed forward to younger generations since the prehistoric era of appreciating human beauty.

Stylization of anatomy, use of bold colors, and detailed lineart show


Maybe it is another fap material for someone, or another picture they look at for no more than 5 seconds.


For me, my art is a tool of communicating with people - what I was thinking while drawing, what I appreciat, and things that I wanna share with others. This is the strength that original art can only has, that Ai cannot replicate.

Questions:

Do you think anime is art? Why/why not?
What do you think as beauty in Art?
- As a viewer, what is the first thing you look for in artwork?
- As an artist, what do you value the most while creating?
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I wanted to ask some opinions of people who buys car decals or stickers at cons/online! I am going to Phx comicon next month and I wanted to turn my Power & Makima fanart into a decal so I can sell them at the artist alley.


After some research, I found usually 4x5 inch "Peeker" size AND 3x8 inch "Slap" sizes are most popular in decals. Personally I don't like slap size unless it is landscape(horizontal) , but my preference isn't really important here - i'm looking for majority of people's preferences since it is too costly to make both sizes, so I must pick one or the other.


Question: When it comes to decals, do you prefer Peeker (left) or Slap (right) size? And why?

Peeker

This is Slap size (3 x 8 inch)


Werwewer

This is "Peeker" size (4x5 inch )


  • I will send a free decal (either Power or Makima) to one of the commenters for taking time to provide their valuable feedback !

  • *no tracking # for international peeps, the shipping breaks my bank sorry ;-;


(if you don't have an experience buying decals, you can just say what size you would prefer if you were to buy a decal for the first time)

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Thanks for great support and comments on my last post. It gave me some anxiety to check out so sorry for replying weeks after.


Maybe I am trying to feel better by venting out a bit. So today I would like to talk about something personal about myself and my life apart from my art. Usually I don't talk about myself much online.


As some of you might know, today is my birthday. Which is not my fav holiday of the year.

Every year on my birthdays, I have a tradition of feeling very depressed on my birthdays.


Growing up, I never had any friend since middle school. When I moved from S Korea to the US, I could not speak any English nor knew how to make friends. I did not have a courage to talk first. Also I did not know how to even speak. I did not wanna show that I do not have any friend. So I would eat alone in the restroom, so that nobody would see me. Or skip lunch.


When Anna came to my life, everything changed. She helped me find a group when I couldn't find any group to join in a class. For the first time, I felt like I have a friend. Growing up, I did not feel like my family ever helped me feel I am loved. So I disowned them and lived alone since young age. Even after graduating college, Anna was the only person who would sleep over at my house and celebrate birthday with me. I would cook for her, and I feel like she treated me better than my own family ever did. I am forever grateful for how she made me feel: that I am not alone in this world. Maybe I'm someone who's worth being loved.



So when I found out Anna took her own life on my birthday 3 years ago, I kinda felt like I lost a piece of myself. I don't know how last 3 years of my life passed. I don't really remember. I think I barely created art because I forgot the joy of doing anything. Not just because of the loss of my friend, but a lot of things happened to constantly keep me depressed.


It's been a few years, and I thought I got over. But I kept waking up every 2 hours last night , barely sleeping. So maybe I havn't got over. Maybe I feel some kind of guilt that I could not help her, while she was able to help me. Now I can fluently write/speak English and I have a lot of friends. But I can't help feeling so down on my birthday.


Well, I don't know how to end this. Anyway it's my birthday and I just wanted to vent out something that my closest friends don't even know why I am feeling depressed today. (Dw I do have lots of friends now, although they don't know my DeviantArt.) I will drop another WiP here.

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Ok guys have a great day, peace out ^.^v

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Aight imma b honest w u guys. It's been giving me a lot of anxiety lately about my own art so I've ditched social media and stopped sharing my stuff online.


Lately, art has been harder to enjoy for me. It's been like a torture almost. Finishing a piece never seemed to be possible because I was never happy with the end result. And I did not want to allow myself to find any good thing about own work. I felt like crap for giving such bad works to my clients and I felt super, like super depressed sometimes. For example, I would work on a piece all day without eating/sleeping, for +18 hours straight without a break, then I would realize it actually got worse after all these hours, and I would feel so awful about myself afterwards, feeling no accomplishment at all.


I've been actively creating still. Like, I would finish over at least + 10 paintings a month and never show it to any single person other than myself. I felt too ashamed to show it to anyone other than myself.


Sometimes, when it is a commissioned piece, I would spend over a year to polish it.


Maybe I am too much of a perfectionist, or I simply am failing to see something good about my own work, since my clients were satisfied with my work. But I realize imma literally become a starving artist if I finish one commission piece per year.

I've been working as freelancer artist for my entire life. But I've been thinking maybe this is not my thing. It is hard to admit that since it's been always my career. But I think it is time for me to change a path of my career at this point.


From now on, I will be focusing on original/fanart works and focus on Patreon/print sales to maintain living without doing commissioned works. Thanks to everyone supporting my art, I've been doing better with print sales that I don't have to take so much commissions.

Lately, I was also offered some full time/contract job positions with big companies. But the stress coming from that + my mentality is not holding up to do those.


Since I feel less stressed and obligation to be perfect on my original / fanart works. I think this way , I will become faster and more efficient with my art. My commissioners have been so so patient and generous with my issue ;-: Thanks for giving me over a year to finish those pieces. There are more than this reason that I made me stress over art, which i will write further on my journal.

I am going to try to take it easy from now on. Otherwise I'ma lose it lol This gave me a lot of anxiety to post but I think it is better for me to talk about how I feel and let others know. But I wanted to try to change the way I view myself and my art.


I will try to share WIPs more often from time to time.

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